What pious little puppets we are, dancing to this god, this church.

What pious little marionettes we are, singing in off-key choirs, praising to a greedy god whose existence remains disputed.

What pious little blind men we are, giving and giving till we have nothing left on our backs, to an organisation that guilt-trips us -- Jesus died for you you know, God sent his only son down to as a sacrifice for your unworthy white ass, so shouldn't you give everything you are to him? Yes, now give everything, your virginity if necessary to procreate sons like the daughters of Lot. A god who loves you unconditionally, who cares for your wellbeing requires this of you, even if you have to bed over backwards to the point that your spine threatens to slice through your ribcage like a striped orange, halved.

They call it faith for a reason. Blind faith. Faith in something so motherfucking unreliable. Yeah, I bet those churchgoers who attended church every sunday didn't expect to have get involved in a car accident right outside the church-- where gos is supposedly protecting all of them.

Where is this god, I ask you? Where? In this bible, ravings by madmen? These outdated, sexist and inhumane ravings some of us stick to so ardently, like it is their life?

I call that an unhealthy obsession.

Every sunday I have to attend this one hour of drudgery, wasting my TIME, my YOUTH and EFFORT/HOURS AWAKE in a god I don't believe in. Free will? HA. The slaves in To Kill A Mockingbird had more free will, I bet. "You go to church and get confirmed or you're out of this house!"

And what happens if you decide to stay home and study because one hour of your precious time is taken up? Oh, suddenly you become the equal of Mas Selamat, a philanderer, a unfilial serpent to your parent's breast! You don't want to spend time with your family! You can very well study during the March holidays! You go online doing unproductive things the whole day, instead of studying!

Peace be with you! What a useless, hypocritical sentiment! Just because I don't want to be another of you motherfucken religious zealots (probably puritans who regard sex as a necessary evil) you have to drag my parents and their parenting techniques into it! And you're a pastor!

What is it with pastors who constantly put their foot in their holier-than-thou mouths?

Another reason why I hate the church as a community: while some of them are understanding, nice people who don't aggressively push their religion like credit-card dealers or the auntie at the neighbourhood salon who tells you to buy her super expensive shampoo, the rest are assholes who think that as long as you don't believe in God, even if you're as kindly as Saint Theresa, it's a one-way ticket to hell.

Besides, Saint Theresa isn't as pure as you think she is. She had a wet dream about the archangel, for goodness' sake. Yeah, the whole bullwash about fiery spears...they're just pretty platitude for sexual fantasies.

Get down to reality, people! You're human. You're the same as us disgusting creatures who tread the same earth as you do, not believing in God. You have the same desires and dreams and ambitions and your nature is the same. Deny that, and you're simply trying to live in an idealistic world.

And you know what happens to people who try to create their own utopia?

War, death and sickness. Bloodshed of children and women and brave men. Torture. Just look at communism and other political systems that try to establish a 'right' to the 'wrong' they see. Look at the jihad. Look at the crusades. So, you think god is so important huh, to the point of just finding a scapegoat to express your superiority? Welcome to the Al-qaeda! You'll fit right in...except that you'll have to believe in the extremist Islam faith.

When the apocalypse comes, God ain't gonna protect you. The church is an architectural building by humans you know? Even with this so-called sanctity, itll come crashing down on you're holier-than-thou mouths.

And I'll be the one laughing through blood, through the piles of rubble as you cry for a god that isn't there.

Church is a supreme waste of my time, time I cannot afford to lose, especially since I don't believe in their pompous rituals of the God. I won't claim I have experience over their heartstring-tugging journey of rediscovering faith. I just don't feel it.

SO shut up and let me study.