Now even blogging is a luxury.
It is due to the continuous pressure exams exert that knowledge becomes solid. Another reason why it is a luxury is due to the fact I keep forgetting my password and the blogger system fucks up by telling me that my username does not exist.
I have this feeling that people are more distant from me. This is probably due to paronia.
Everyday passes by with a brush of wandering fingers, and it's giving me a massive headache.
My golden age is over, and I can no longer write as well as I used to. Not anymore.
Just realised that I have been using present tense until now. Yay.
I shall not panic. I shall not panic.
Because the MYE is coming and I am sitting here on my un-royal lazy arse typing this as the assessment book's question about the circulatory system ain't so interesting.
MUST BRUSH UP ON MY VOCAB! I CAN'T EVEN HOLD AN INTELLECTUAL CONVERSATION WITHOUT REPEATING THE SAME WORD AGAIN...
GAH! Goddess of Muse, why are you so cruel? Why give me inspiration when I HAVE to prepare for these mortal tests? Why? WHY????
Speaking of cruel, the effective learning courses were useful....unfortunately I can't apply the 2448116 thing as I only have ONE FRIGGIN' WEEK to exams.
I leave my revision to last minute, as usual. So I'm re-learning everything. Joy.
Anyway, I don't really get Biology. It seems to me everytime I ATTEMPT to do the tests (Yes, very EASY quiz you gave us, Mr [I-forgot-your-name-eep]. It was so easy that I did not know how to answer some of the questions) I just...blank out. I think I've got the concept, but it turns out that I know peanuts about it.
Chemistry quiz yesterday was HELL.... I wrote the correct aswer for the first time round, only to scratch it out....
Lesson learnt? Always trust your instinct. Except when it come to quadratic curves, because Miss instinct isn't too found of them.
Ahh... so many distractions. There's liao zhai on TV (I love the supernatural!), Muse whispering breathily in my ear, potential stanzas and story arcs mapping itself when I try to map my quadratic curves, Vampire Knight anime (KYYYAAA! BLOOD! VAMPIRES! CAN I TOUCH THE FANG?) and my all-time favourite manga.
T.T
Why????? Why torture me?
I don't think I can fare well. I just have a vague premonition about this. This year's SA results aren;t gonna be promising, unlike last years.
PLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLEASE let me score well and go into the E LIT classes....don't seperate me with Shakespeare...I BEG YOU, TO WHATEVER GODS THAT BE!
I need to be able to score well anough to go to the JCs and DROP CHINESE FOREVER!
And on a note,
I hate chinese. I hate chinese. I'll be happy if I can score a B3 in it...
HECK, 69 WOULD EVEN DO!
As long as it isn't a C or borderline pass...
I need to read more chinese newspapers.
In the end, we are just petty mortals chasing after shadows that had long abandoned us...It was wrong. Logically, mathematically, grammactically scientifically wrong. The past thense can never be mixed with present, and time would not allow itself to be bent just for the sake of replaying past events.
The past past.
Why do peole keep momentos of ex-spouses and graze the faces in still frames so longingly? Why do people willingly submit themselves to a fate they did not pick? Why dop we keep returning to people that had passed us with not a glance, just to check on them?
Humans are sentimental creatures. Sentimental fools.
We hanker over lost arguments, we write long notes to encourage people who
don't give a damn, we replay passed scenes over and over again in our minds like a continuous movie. Why do we take so much effort to hurt ourselves?
We advance forward just to retreat, we draw the future just for it to look bleak, we re-create the past just for tasting the sizzle in that glimpse only to realise that it isn't the same.
We've lost ourselves, in the use of past tense.
The present tense is confusing. How can we link past events to the present?
Just revising through the last days with past tense.
