I hate it when people hear me speak English/Chinese and assume I am from China.

The other day when I was asking directions to the motherfucking Arts House (goddamn it it was so difficult to find it virtually in the middle of nowhere and WHY THE HECK DO SINGAPOREANS NOT KNOW WHERE IT IS and when I tried reading the map I ended up in the completely opposite direction but that's not pertinent).

So, I went, "Excuse me, could you give me directions to the arts house or exit B? I'm kind of lost here..."

And the idiotic Chinese, donation-squeezing guy in polo shirt goes, "Are you local? From China ah?"

Me: (smile is strained) Yes, I am Singaporean, I am Chinese, but I'm not from China.

He: Orrrrh... You don't sound very local, that's why...

Me: (minni kaboom of temper going off in head, but somehow miraculously retaining polite but harassed smile) So can you point me the direction of the arts house?

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This isn't the first time. The last time I went to the hairdressers', and tried to direct in Chinese the hairstyle I wanted, the lady goes,

"Oh, are you from China?" (In Chinese)
"Ah...no..."

ARRRRGGGGHHHHHHH

What the heck do I look very Chinese?! I am absolutely certain that I do not speak like someone from China (especially in Chinese...all Chinese emperors of the past and liguistic masters would have been turning in their graves), nor do I remotely sound like them when panicking (in english). Oh no! Does that mean I speak (gasp of horror) pidgin English/sound like an American?

*faints*

NUUUUUUUUU

I feel my position on hating Chinese is very precarious in my school, where the top pupil is a PRC. I can't even comment on their political system for fear of offending one of them and then ending up in a grisly murder as a victim of the ancient Chinese torture/getting into an argument in Chinese where I would be unable to understand or retort. Darn. It's one thing when you go around saying,"ARGGHH I HATE CHINESE LESSONS" and another when you go around exclaiming "SHIT The chinese government is still communist isn't it? That's pretty twisted....did you know that communism across Asia and Europe killed the more people than victims from WWI and WWII combined? (or was that the rape of nanjing?)"

Scary.

You get the shivers after reading 1984 and realising the full extent of communism (from socialism). I had shivers for days and couldn't read The Straits Times reports concerning PAP, because I kept thinking, "Big Brother is WATCHING you. He's gonna throw you in jail if you dissent." eeep.