I think I may have a masochistic streak.

*watches as imaginary audience gasps in horror*

Yeah. Somehow I enjoy diliberately reopening old wounds and reading scathing criticisms on my fanfiction (irregardless of the fact that I had long outgrown fanfiction, bad poetry and now have launched into full-out purple prose). Reading a particularly vicious comment somehow just pissed me off again because I noticed the author had not even given me any concrit regarding my writing.

Here's the review:
"
"Am a first timer."

Oh yes, this is so professional. Normally I would read someone saying, "I am a first timer."

You made me laugh honestly by saying "go by the excuse that this is your 'first fanfic'" yet you said that you have read all my stories? I doubt that my the way because I place my stories on about three websites, some have other stories that the others do not carry.

What humored me and my friend was that your little review was nearly just as long compared to the only fan fiction you have done on this website.

I hope the review was professional enough for you."

Now I suppose it was my fault in the first place because of m grammar nazi-ness, leading me to comment rather scathingly on her writing style and ploit development, as well as characterization. I was in secondary onewhen I wrote that awful piece of drivel, and in sec 2 when I gave the scathing review.

Yes, I was perfectly aware my reivew is longer than my story. Oh hardy har har, the irony neophyte writers use to soothe their nascent egos. But isn't that the whole poinbt of review? To give concrit and comment on things like flow, metaphors, style and etc.? I don't want some shitass comment about "aw." or "so cute" or "it's very well-written" -- well, it's flattering, but it doesn't help me.

Egoistic bitches like the above certainly have an ego that precedes their intelligence.

And yes, I am aware that this is an argument fallacy because I am basing this on my opinion. Her spirit "an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth" really rankles, especially since I reviewed her in hopes of getting her to improve. Geez, I read it and I bothered to comment. If you want empty, honey-glazed flattery, go and ask the twilight fangirls to read it. I'm interested in literature, not sexual fantasies written by a hormonal teenage girl who has no sense of diction or literary devices.

Did I mention that seeing typos still rankle me?

At first, I wanted to adopt another username to review her other stories -- she had improved over time, but I still saw a few errors here and there, but I decided that it was pointless wasting my breath on people who do not want to learn. It's like what Calpurnia said in Mockingbird, tht people will only learn if they want to, you can't force them to.

Meanwhile I'll save this for people who appreciate it, like my fellow CAPpers, who enjoy a good book and engage in all-out literature talks for hours.

It's not that I don't accept negative feedback. I am more than happy to receive any type of feedback, as long as you have a reason and suggestions fo rimprovement. If you simpoly insult me without any reference to my writing, then don't bother. I am aware I am not exactly the epitome of maturity-- I am still learning, still trying to be better.

However, I am extremely happy to have found a home in DeviantArt, which is loads better than fanfiction. I have journeyed on and never looked back. I am now a mentored participant, with my own portfolio, learning under a published writer and teaching others how to write. I know it's extremely childish of me to throw one last jibe back at that scorned writer, but I can't resist.

To YOU (yes, you know who you are, emo-shukun)

I am now living a life that brings me more satisfaction that one anonymous writer who has no talent whatsoever, sitting behind a computer screen using others' characters for choppy stories with poor characterisation. I have journeyed beyond this notebook drivel of fanfiction and never once looked back. While you indulge in yoru wet dreams with anime characters and are gloriously proud of your achievements in beign published online, I will be published in a book next year. So now, who's more qualified? Who's more 'professional', so as to speak? While I leave my imprint as a young talent on Singapore's shores and get scholarships, you are still there, where you begun: a Nobody. I, as a writer, sincerely wish you better luck in your writing.

P.S. consider getting your characters right. What humoured me was that you seem to think a mother purposely messing up her son's bedroom and behaving as if she is bipolar is the epitome of maturity.