I am very scared about what happens tomorrow. About my results and the stupid A Math file.
Argh I don't want to live, I see no reason living on if the world is gonna end in 2012 anyway.
Just lemme die in advance. Please.
Somehow I am getting the image of screaming, screaming so hard until my throat bursts into ssplinters and my lungs constrict themselves, screaming until no sound leaves my lips except the rush of wind through my trachea, a wordless, mouthless, silent scream.
No one can save me from m demons this time. I hear them whispering and giggling in the dark, I see them wind their knotty wrists up my thighs and their jaws snapping on my breast, I feel them blanket me in murky nothingess of static and insecurity, they whisper...whisper...whisper...
I know it's all imagined. But every now and then fear grips my heart.
Just let me die or let me be numb.