I met my nemesis at the canteen today. I went off happily with the clique, but as I tromped off to the bus stop, I really didn't expect to see her there...

So dao mei he enemy ye you yuan fen...

But somehow, upon seeing her my curiosity was triggered. How was she faring? What class was she in? I remembered that she used to be in a class (whose name seriously juxtaposed with her character...as if she's a loyal gryffindor). Upon going home, I switched on my trusty computer and searched the net high and low for her blog.

It did take quite a while, but I managed to locate it...and find out, to my utmost pleasure and gratification, that she was sorted into the lowest class (sorry people of 3BN, some of you are really nice people who don't deserve this fate, so JYJY everyone...except for HER of course). To my amusement and malicious glee, she even had to attend the 3 week PUMP program!

For someone who used to mock the intelligence of others and apt at the art of betrayal, it's a great irony, no?

This goes to show that 老天有眼! Just desserts for her!

Whee! Retribution upon her head!

Yes, I know I am being a hypocrite and a vengeful scrooge, but I don't care. I am a competitive person, if I defeat them in all areas of life, then I will have truly conquered them in a way. That's my way of thinking.

I kow people are telling me to forget. But I can't. I'm sorry, I can't erase it, it's been a vital part of me which shaped me. My path is irreversible, and I will loiter in the darkness forever, unable to venture into the light because to be in the light, you have to ignore the darkness. Pretend it doesn't exist. I can't do that.

Besides, what right do you have to tell me that if you seem to be even further away than before? No one tells me anything, I'm left out of the loop and have to find things out for myself. I'm tired enough in school and math, where you have to constantly find the unknown. I don't want to keep having to find you.

A relationship is a two-way thing (I'm talking about friendship, geez). I can't keep having to appease you guys and finding you. One day I'll stop. So maybe we'll drift apart.

Bloody valor and conscience and the need for companionship instilled into all of us. Bloody feelings, I'd rather be empty.