--Warning: Annoyance level high. I promise to be nicer, so this doesn't qualify as nice, but I have to get it out of my system. Compiled days ago, posting it up today. Take it as fiction.--

I have had it.

I am sick of this, I tell you.

If you don't like to be judged, then don't fucking judge me!

Everyone have their flaws. Laziness, ugliness, stupidity, greed, lust, etc. I have flaws, and I know that. I know I am proud, arrogant, and downright obnoxious sometimes, judgemental, opinionated, shoots of mouth without thinking, rash, bitchy, and a coward.

Yes, I admit I am a coward. For typing this in my blog instead of having a face-off with people concerned. For hiding behind IP addresses and a monitor screen. But admit it sometimes, it just isn't smart to go to the battlefield without a strategy. You might as well commit suicide, amen.

So it depends on your view...WHY THE FUCK AM I GOING OFF TOPIC?! Ahem. Let me carry on with this tirade.

There's alot of people that hate me for my stubborn character, and possibly argumentative as well. But. I. Try. Okay?

When I am TRYING to be sensitive *snorts* and tactful here, purposely editing over harsh words, you bombard me.

You know what?

FINE. You want to hear harsh words? Trust me, I have a plethora of them. I go out of my way to stop YOUR ego from being crushed like a cockroach but apparently it has as many electrons as the element Actinium, (I copied it off the textbook ok?) making it impossibly egregious and thick. If I had known, I would have cut down on the guilt after the conversation.

But since you insist on scratching open old wounds, instead of stopping you (against my be-nice-and-kind-to-everyone side), I think I'll sit around and watch you get an infection, or wait till you've scraped yourself to bone, and your scrunched flesh is embedded in your fingernails...

I really HATE people who CLAIM that I promised them something when my exact words were: I'll see, no promises.

Hello. Do you speak English? Did you fail your English Language at foundation level? Want to go back to preschool? I'll pay--It's my generous gift to the world for upgrading the illiterate. *smiles benignly upon the masses*

So don't you DARE hold me on something I supposedly 'promised' when the situation is on a hiatus and when it turns out that something cropped up last minute, you unseat yourself from your high horse and get ready to blame the world.

Oh woe, woe, thy is so wronged! Cursed from thine birth, the world has wronged me so! I am a martyr, the only remaining of what left that is clean...

Give me that shit and I will CLEAN your insides out for you so that you can be 'pure' and 'clean'. I'll use bleach and microwave oven cleaner, if you want. Happy dying, see you in the newspaper, i.e. the obituary.

You didn't think that I even looked forward to the event. That shows how much you don't know me. It's not my fucking fault that the higher authorities changed their decision. Me, hiding behind someone's skirt? I like to fight my own wars myself, thank you. I simply granted your request. Besides, the situation is rather familiar, don'tyou think, pot calling a kettle black?

You changed, not me. And the topic on listening? Try doing it yourself, or 'analyse' every single word I say.I may look crude, or seem open and direct. But that's the mask molded on me. Behind the mask could be a ravishing beauty...or a manipulative beast. I remember some, I forget some, I forgive some. I may not think too much of the situation at hand, but the key, as in every summary, is to remember the essential points. And I better get an excellent explanation.

Just be careful of where you tread, you might fall into a trap. Because not everyone is as amicable or quiet as you think. Loud ones may even have secrets.

P.S. Please note that certain words are only applicable,depending on the situation given. i.e. 'Account for your actions.' It is an extremely strong word. It may have been better to avoid the spear entirely instead of dancing around in a game of swordplay. It is best to know, as a manipulator, when to appear ignorant, and when to nip situations in the bud.

It's a corrupted world we live in. It's the survival of the fittest, or the treacherous. You eitherlose, get stepped on, plunge into insanity or make your steps careful, slowly inching towards the top.

There are only two colours in the world: Black and white. The slight smudge which is grey is the fallen.